The Price of Hatred

From Paulo Coelho’s blog:

A conversation between him and his spiritual master.

“It’s very difficult. But there is no choice: if you don’t pardon,
then you’ll think about the pain they caused you and that pain will
never go away. I’m not saying that you have to like those who do you
wrong. I’m not telling you to go back to that person’s company. I’m not
suggesting that you start seeing that person as an angel or as someone
who acted without any hurtful intentions. All I am saying is that the
energy of hate will take you nowhere, but the energy of pardon which
manifests itself through love will manage to change your life in a
positive sense.”

“I have been hurt many times.”

“That’s the reason that you still bear within yourself the little
boy who cried hiding from his parents, the boy who was the weakest in
his class. You still bear the marks of that frail little boy who could
never find a girlfriend and was never good at sports. You haven’t
managed to chase off the scars of some injustices they committed
against you during your life. But what good does that do you? None at
all. Absolutely nothing. Just a constant desire to feel sorry for
yourself for being the victim of those who were stronger. Or else dress
up like an avenger ready to inflict more wounds on those who hurt you.
Don’t you think you’re wasting your time with all that?”

“I think it’s human.”

“It’s certainly human. But it’s neither intelligent nor reasonable.
Respect your time on this Earth, understand that God has always
pardoned you, and learn to pardon too.”

After this conversation with J, which took place just before I
traveled to spend 40 days in the Mojave desert in the United States, I
began to understand better the boy, the adolescent, the hurt adult I
once was. One morning, going from the Valley of Death in California to
Tucson in Arizona, I made a mental list of everyone I thought I hated
because they had hurt me. I went along pardoning them one by one and
six hours later, in Tucson, my soul felt so light and my life had
changed much for the better.

  1. its not as easy as it seems. pardoning. and no matter how hard you try to forgive, it happened and you can't do anything about it and it will always come back to haunt you.

  2. It's never easy. That's why it's called a leap of faith. ;)Forgiveness, I think, really is more of an internal state rather than anything outward. Once you can let their actions go, stop blaming them…you stop letting them hold you back. You become free. This doesn't mean you forget what happened and go merrily on your way forever and ever. It still happened, and nothing you can do can change that. Forgiveness is a way of making peace with it without denying it. If you truly forgive, it may come back…but not to haunt you, because when it comes, you are able to genuinely forgive again.

  3. You're definitely right about that.

    • margot
    • February 2nd, 2010

    time heals all things. you learn to detach yourself from it gradually – it is a survival mechanism I think that installs within yourself to keep going –

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